Again01/25/2013 - Author: Jennifer - 19 Comments
Every Friday, Lisa-Jo Baker over at Tales from a Gypsy Mama gives us a word and a challenge. To write for 5 minutes without abandon. It is fun and I encourage you to try it. Here we go! The word is…
Last night, I felt my world was falling apart, again. I don’t know what the future holds and I don’t know what the next step is with our son’s future, but I feel like I have failed again.
I hate being a repeat offender. I hate having fear in the unknown when I fully believe that God sees what is going on, is in control, and loves my son more than me. He knows what is best and knows that we can do this or he wouldn’t have let me and my husband be his parents. What a gift, blessing, and honor that God loaned our son to us!
Last night, I took to my prayer journal and cried out to God on paper. It is something new I am doing. It used to be enough for me to just cry out, but there is something therapeutic for me to put it on paper.
This situation makes me see my need, as a mom, to rely on God. It reminds me, again, that I can not do this alone. For the good times and the times that frustrate me, I need to again, go to God. I need to thank and praise Him, because He is the same, no matter what!