Here04/12/2013 - Author: Jennifer - 14 Comments
Every Friday, Lisa-Jo Baker over at Tales from a Gypsy Mama gives us a word and a challenge. To write for 5 minutes without abandon. It is fun and I encourage you to try it. Here we go! The word is…
I have a hard time usually living in the here and now. It is not uncommon for me to try and think ahead. I like to think of myself as trying to be prepared. In thinking ahead, I also wonder if motherhood will get easier. Instead of enjoying the moments that are here, or seeing the good right now in the present, I think about how it will be easier when my son is potty trained or when he can talk.
I wonder, often, why God has me here. Why God has me doing what I am doing. It seems difficult for me to feel His presence during hard times. What is His purpose for me being here? How am I to honor and serve Him when I know He has me here, but I feel lost, scared, confused? I know these feelings are not from Him, so I need to rely on Him in the here and now, and also for the futre. I need to praise Him for my past (where He has brought me from), for where I am now (what He is teaching/refining me), and for my future~~ wherever my new here will be.