A Letter To Myself05/16/2013 - Author: Jennifer - No Comments
Dear Weary Mom,
This is a letter to myself really. This has been a hard road, and my son is only 2. I thought that when my son was at this age we would be in a routine, but we are not. I thought that he would sleep through the night. However, he is proving to be a night owl and his parents are not. I thought that I would have more confidence as a mom. Instead it seems that I have more failures than victories, so there is no way to have confidence that I am doing a good job.
Please mom, believe me when I say that your son being delayed in certain areas is not your fault and not a form of punishment. Please~~ find the good that is there. Focus on what he can do. Celebrate the victories that you do have.
Another thing to remind myself of~~ I am going to fail, but God is with me. I have to remind myself that when I don’t speak in a loving manner that there is forgiveness for me. I am not a hopeless cause. There is redemption. I am where I am meant to be~~ a mom with a son who is just trying to learn, grow, and survive. Just like me. He doesn’t act out because he hates me. My son and I~~ we both have lessons to learn and grace to give each other. Weary mom, also remember to give yourself grace.
Before I was a mother, I thought that I would do all of the teaching to my child. My son has helped me learn lessons that God knew I needed. I am grateful. Really I am. I don’t judge as much as I used to and I don’t have all of the answers that I did before I had the title of mom. So, to all of the moms out there~~ I offer an apology to you for when I judged you and saw ALL of the ways you weren’t doing it right. Please forgive me. I now see that we all are doing the best we can and holding on to hope.
Linking up over at Hope for the Weary Mom today. If you need encouragement, you should stop by.