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Transition

09/26/2014 - Author: Jennifer - 8 Comments

Recently, I have closed a chapter in my life and I am excited about that. I also believe that another chapter in my life is closing (and has been for awhile and I just didn’t want to admit it) but this closing makes me sad. I am almost in tears, but I don’t honestly see a need to keep that chapter open anymore. I don’t feel that I can do it–that I am not made to do it anymore.

After dropping my son off at daycare, I asked God why can’t I do it all? Why can’t I be more organized? Why can’t I be more disciplined? I read where these women seem to be able to do it all and I just don’t get it. They seem to be making an impact and I am jealous. I know that jealousy is a sin, so can you pray for me please?

So I need to ask God some questions:

  • What is next? I just want to be obedient (I think).
  • Did I miss what God wanted for me due to disobedience and selfishness?
  • Where do we go from here?
  • Has my whining and complaining caused my husband and I to miss where God wants us? I would like to think God is using me to help guide Matt, but honestly, I think I am a distraction. We should work together to lead others to Jesus, but I am pulling us away and apart. I am not a good example for our son.

I know there is a verse about asking and receiving (Mt. 7:7) but, as my husband reminded me, you have to pray. It isn’t that I haven’t asked God about some of these things before, but maybe I need to get over jealousy, inadequacy, and being hurt by folks before there is clarity. Maybe I need to pray more and, as my pastor has said, have more focused prayers.

I am grateful He still wants to use me. Use us. My mind is a jumbled mess. Will you pray for us? Pray for clarity, contentment, patience and anything else we need?

Be blessed 🙂

Side note–I know that this post might be vague, and for that I am sorry. I hate vague posts, but I am trying to cut down on whining.

 

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Discussion (8 Comments)

  1. by Stacy Ward
    Reply

    Praying for you my friend!

    • by Jennifer
      Reply

      Thank you so much!

  2. Praying, and loving your honesty. Love you bunches always have, always will!!!

    • by Jennifer
      Reply

      Thank you!

  3. by Valerie
    Reply

    Praying circles around these questions. Asking for wisdom and discernment for you!

    • by Jennifer
      Reply

      Thank you thank you thank you!

  4. Dear friend… don’t forget to just breathe. No woman does it all, despite how it may appear. You can’t do it all and the Lord doesn’t expect you to. Hugs and prayers to you!

    • by Jennifer
      Reply

      Thank you and hugs back!

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